I.

I am a giver.
I have Maybe Baby Fever.
I want to travel.
I hate bugs.
I love maps. Specifically maps drawn on my back.
I hear my cat meowing at a fly, the fan.
I see my family every three months and that’s not nearly often enough.
I wish that K and I were together.
I fear the days when my momma isn’t a part of my life.
I search for ways to be a better person.
I wonder if being here is the right place to be now.
I regret not a lot, but the things I do regret, I regret deeply.
I always sleep on my belly.
I am not a musician, though I have dreams of rocking out vocals on a stage in a smoky jazz club.
I never thought I’d be 29 and not have babies yet.
I sometimes wish life had fast forward, pause, slow and rewind options.
I need lots of affection.
I should be more organized.
I don’t say goodbye.

337 Days Later

When I first started this blog, K hadn’t left yet. Now, he’s been gone for 337 days. That’s astounding to me. Time does pass, and when we look back, it seems that it went by so fast. The reality is that those 337 days have been difficult and has stretched out the fibers of our relationship. In a few weeks our engagement anniversary will be coming up and it’s bittersweet to me. Hmmm . . . maybe more bitter than sweet. Ten days after our engagement anniversary will make a year since K’s left.

Here’s the highlights of the past 337 days without K:
• Started a new job.
• Moved into a new apartment.
• Had wisdom teeth removed. Awful, awful experience.
• Had to post bail due to a traffic ticket issue.
• Had to go to court over driver license expiration.
• Became a mentor through Big Brothers/Big Sisters.
• Adopted a kitten (or as I call him, my little Gold Mine).
• Nursed kitten through the following: ear mites, fleas, conjunctivitis,
worms, yeast infection in the ears.
• Went through 4 managers in the first 6 months of my new position.
• Had my car booted while on a site visit.
• Had my car catch fire in rural Missouri.
• Asked to be the Maid of Honor in two weddings (this is only significant due to the amount of work that is involved in wedding duties).
• Turned 29 (GASP!)
• Went through Catholic Initiation and was officially converted to Catholicism on Easter 2011.

I like to stay busy. So, here is a list of things to be accomplished in the next 337 days:
• Do a marathon.
• Get a promotion.
• Take a vacation with my mom.
• Fulfill my Maid of Honor duties (sigh).
• See K.
• Not turn 30 alone.